london-ish

london|of all metropoles worldwide|is one that does sleep|eleven is the sad number of the day when lights come on and doors open wide for all customers to step outside into the rain|not even tipsy yet|for eleven|for most is just after having finished supper|of course there are clubs open till the morning|but streets|vibrant during day and evening seem dead at night|it takes some getting used to|london|different than most|

share-ish

21th century|thats our time|but|why do we all spend it sharing|what we are doing|how we feel|not with one person|but with thousands of screens all over the world|everybody reads our lives|online|but who really shares it|offline|

b/w-ish

our world is in color|we feed on the world’s colors|we long for the energizing sight of natures manifold colors|innovations have brought millions of colors to our tvs|and phones|printers|and cameras|too many colors|maybe|our imagination is fed up with being useless|that must be why black and white pictures fascinate us|they leave space to breathe|space to invent our own colors|the colors of our world|imagine|

move-ish

moving actually does not mean moving|it means cleaning|sorting|getting rid of stuff|that is what you really do when moving to a new apartment|and|there seems to be no end to it|there are very few things in life that do not end|ever|cleaning is one of them|i wonder if my life is long enough to make peace with a world where there is no end to cleaning|sorting|getting rid of stuff|

awaken-ish

every night|at ten past twelve|an alarm goes off|in the neighborhood|i only hear it if the balcony door is not closed|it is far|but there|where|i do not know|for it is dark|i can only hear it|can not see it|if only the owner of the clock would wake up|and respond to the calling of his clock|he must have set month ago|i am awake|always|i wonder if the clock will find the one it is calling for|before its power runs out|ten past twelve at night|what an unusual time for a clock to come alive|

parent-ish

while all our lives are so diverse|yet|we all once were given birth by a woman|as a result of a man’s and the woman’s dna shuffled together|soon birth might not require a woman anymore|soon dna can be put together at will|how will this change of source influence the birthless children’s minds|

melt-ish

sun|blue skies|cheerful people|it is melting|finally|snow gone|we all feel the awaited season in us|flushing out foul winter depressions|defrost your emotions|let them sprout|

change-ish

while the earth keeps turning|unperturbed|the world is changing|and so are our lives|whether it is on our account or not|when scared of changes|what are we really scared of|the change itself|or the adaption to it|

anticipation-ish

it starts slow|the feeling of pleasant anticipation|a tingling sensation in your stomach|very silent at first|with time|it grows|into a buzzing feeling|filling your body|

distance-ish

in times where sentences like|i was in new york yesterday|no|today i am in paris|see you in two days in rio|come natural to us|if distance is not what matters anymore|what does matter|time matters|duration|it is not the distance that is of importance|important is the time spend in one place|everybody can fly to new york just like this|not everybody can stay for more than a fortnight|if even that|hence the menace of relationships is not distance|it rather is the time not spent together|

tummy-ish

there is the brain|it holds memories|it puts things into context|it is complex|it controls our behaviors|it controls everything|life|but|it does not control our tummy|the feelings we have about life|the instincts we can not explain nor control|it is our stomach that puts the little extra feeling to our existence|a sensation|we do not want to miss|a sensation that really makes us|human|

miss-ish

miss-ishone can miss just about everything|the food you are used to|the couch you love to relax on|the sea|the mountains|but when it comes to missing people|missing goods becomes a blur|missing a person can be felt not just on one level|it can not be put into words|no more words|

spring-ish

now|no now|today|yes|no|why|the time started again|the time when spring is around the corner and you can feel it|you long for it|each day when it gets a little warmer we hope for the start of spring|for me every season has something special|and right at the middle of one i am already waiting for the next|summer|winter|spring|i think i could never live in a place that doesn’t have seasons|at least not all year-round|

2008-ish

a very eventful year is almost over|i studied|and i forgot|i laughed|and i cried|i traveled|and i barricaded myself at home|possibly more than in any year before|some of the best|and some of the worst|memories of my life will always be linked with this year|i will always remember 2008 as the year|i truly and irreversibly grew up|

survive-ish

sometimes i wonder|if instead of trying so desperately to keep my head above the water|i should rather focus on learning how to dive|whether you are struggling hard to keep on top of it|or give in to its embrace and let it drag you to its depths|both times the water is your enemy|if you make it your ally|study carefully its streams and swirls|and put them to your use|learn to economize your breath|and manage to stay calm when waves mount up above your head|trusting your abilities and discretion|you might actually get somewhere from your own strength|instead of frantically gasping for breath|and hoping for a boat to come and safe you|

see-ish

no question|being able to see is very important|but what if your sight is taken by nature|overnight|we scrape|the windows of our cars in the morning|in wintertime|

the-better-ish

my brother always thought that my piece of chocolate was bigger than his|so we traded|never a bad deal|in europe we believe that japanese knifes are the best|japanese people buy german knifes because they are legendary|what we can have we do not want|what we want is what we can not have|exactly|men with kids are sexy in the eyes of women|because|they are very likely to be in a relationship|unavailable|thus wanted|longing for the better|always bored with what we have|human|isn’t it|

satur-ish

one day|i give myself one free|really free day a week|saturday|why|why not|monday through friday – everybody works|so it just feels right to work too|but|while most people love their sunday to be free|i find that sunday is the most boring day of the week|so|i work on sundays too|if possible|saturday is my day|

virgin-ish

oh darling|why didn’t you tell me it was your first time|i would have been gentler|less demanding|i knew i was more experienced than you|but i would never have guessed|still|it is all the more surprising|that this was the longest time|i ever did it|i want to|videophone with you again|

present-ish

no list yet|the list|the christmas-present-list is due|for more than a month now|christmas is ahead|we all know it|we have always known|last year|the year before|and|even worse|next year|why|why is it so hard to think of presents earlier|is that what christmas has become|a run|a contest about who is most organized|who gets the presents in time|in summer|the list|i need my list|starting now| mom| dad| brother| grandma| friend| friend| friend| friend|

co-love-ish

ever had a good friend who fell in love|and shared the excitement|that is a co-love experience|you just know why your friend turns red after reading a long-waited-for message|you hear just by the way your friend says hello after picking up the phone who is calling|being in a co-love-relationship is just fun|

fancy-ish

besides being a funny word|fancy is also pronounced in different ways depending on where you come from|the meaning is the same for all of us|it either is something very extrodinary or it describes that a person is interested in somebody|fancy|

cook-ish

now being offered a home-cooked meal by someone is quite a treat|saying no is just – wrong|i cook|people like what i cook|it does taste good|mostly|i never had anybody refuse to me cooking|i was speechless|devastated|what could possibly be better than home-made food|maybe people that don’t really know me yet are scared to come to my house|but|i’m good people|i mean no harm|i got dumped|my cooking got dumped|depressing|what can i do|i cook|

air-ish

we all know it|i am just going to repeat the facts again|we can not see it|it weights close to nothing|it is essential for us|but still we couldn’t care less|we simply forget about one of the most important things there are in this world|and just like with everything else we have to care once we lack it|

materialist-ish

we live in a world based on material|on means|things we made|natural things are rare|when was the last time you had breakfast on a rock somewhere out in the woods instead of having it at your designer table|sitting on designer chairs let alone the fake vitamins you eat for breakfast as a supplement to the fake food you eat everyday|but how bad is it really if one enjoys the means we can buy|

mother-ish

mothers just know what you don’t want to hear about|and in many cases that is exactly what they are going to talk about|while some things are important to talk about|other things we just hear over and over again as if we didn’t know it ourselves|for me my mother’s probing in problems i know i have doesn’t make it easier for me to solve them|in order to still stand upright after a talk with my mother i need to push the problems away|that certainly doesn’t help the already hard process of solving the problems|i know it|my mom knows it|but|we keep talking|

dualist-ish

yes or no|black or white|man or woman|gay or straight|good or bad|virgin or whore|right or wrong|our life is complicated enough|when classifying things we want it simple|is that wise or unwise|i’d say it’s neither|and both|

friendship-ish

do we choose our friends for what they are|or for what we want them to be|often we feel attracted to people that are similar to us|we are drawn to people that represent what we would like to be like|maybe we choose our friends for what we are|that is why it is kind of a shock if our friends don’t like each other|

addict-ish

sometimes it is very soft|sometimes it is so intense i can hardly bear it|because i am still sore from the last time|i like to enjoy it for hours|but even if i can only feel it for a few minutes it eases my pain|a whole day without it makes me feel sad and cold|it is the only therapy i need|i am addicted to sunlight|

grey-ish

in art class i learned that black and white are no colours|so what is grey|the child of everything and nothing|if white is pure and black is nihilistic|then grey is open to compromise|non-discriminatory|indecisive|and voracious|it looks so innocent and is easily overlooked|but its intentions are nothing less than to shatter our world picture|once you have experienced grey|you cannot truly go back to black or white|it is the loss of innocence|fall of mankind and enlightenment at the same time|how come they never told us about that in art class|

brood-ish

i like to think things through|there’s nothing wrong with that|but what happens when thinking becomes an end in itself|when it prevents me from acting|when it is just keeping me busy long enough to spare me the trouble of making a decision|when “i think, therefore i am” perversely turns into “i think, therefore i stop being”|i am not sure how this should influence my actions|but i’m sure i’ll think of something once i thought it through|

love-ish

one-sided love can be the worst but may be the most honest love there is|knowing that the loved person doesn’t love you back makes the relationship quite clear|love-wise|the question how deep does he/she love me just doesn’t occur|no insecureness at all|of course we pay the price for not being loved back|pain|just a few things are as honest as the words|i don’t love you|because if you truly do love, you would never say that you don’t|no lying|

crisp-ish

i have never met a person who doesn’t like crispy food|something about crispy food makes us happy, gives u a inner satisfaction while chewing|what does our conscience associate with crispy|fresh|healthy|it must be something good|fresh fruit can be crispy but don’t have to be|so there is no connection of the texture of food with their healthiness|i’d like to know|crispy-comments welcome|

contact-ish

you have to have sight in order to see|but if you don’t see you need to be helped|either glasses or contacts can solve the problem|then you have sight|but do you see|can you see what’s behind|can you see what’s inside|most people with perfect sight don’t see|in many cases it is not the glasses or the contacts that make us see|in order to see|open your eyes|

memory-ish

they say we should live neither in the past nor in the future|of course i want to live my life now|but it’s my past that makes me what i am today|good memories give me strength when i most need it|bad memories prevent me from making unwise choices|both kinds enable me to learn and to tell stories|i’m little afraid of losing my money or possessions|but i’m clinging to my memories|i take them with me wherever i go|in the end, money and possessions are nothing but a vessel for memories|material things remind me of what happened in the past|and money allows me to make new experiences in the future|

run-ish

i love to run|it is a passion|whenever i feel not well|i tie my running shoes|which take me on my regular course|i get my head clear|feel relieved|free|just me|the path|the nature|i await the moment when happiness is spread all over my body|i feel one with the world|am totally happy and satisfied|

bachelor-ish

the word itself has two meanings|both can be connected to pressure by the society|there is the bachelor that just needs to get married already|and there is the degree that shows who you are in society|what if you are it|and|don’t have it|you are most certainly screwed by society|friends and family included|

d-ish

a day is like a dish|3 parts|meat|vegetables|and side-dish|like noodles or potatoes|sleep|work|leisure|some people|love their noodles and hardly eat anything else|as some love sleeping and choose sleep over fun or work|others go with the meat|work all day|hardly sleep and only have squeezed-in leisure time|how much does the dish we choose represent what we are|and what happens if we make ourselves follow a special diet|will that fuck it all up|

telepath-ish

there are things in life which cannot be explained rationally|but need we really understand everything|this is what makes life mysterious to some extend|the phone is ringing|the person you were just thinking of is on the other end of the line|what a coincidence|yes|no|you say something|your vis-à-vis is amazed|he or she just wanted to say the same|you are not feeling well|get a call from someone|who just had that ‚feeling’|worries and cares about you|it makes me feel loved|valued|as much as i love and value the other person|it is definitely something that makes life worth living|

japanese-ish

the japanese language has a word for every social phenomenon one can think of|’demodori’ is a divorced woman who moves back in with her parents|’giri-choco’ is the valentine chocolate given to colleagues and the like out of sheer obligation|i wonder how they call the fetish of trying to subordinate people and cultural phenomena| by putting a label on them|

ask-ish

the concept of wishing is simple and easy to distinguish from asking|while asking needs a real addressee – wishing doesn’t|but how effective is a wish if there is no addressee|are we, secretly, the addresser and addressee|

ybbb-ish

you often make my day|no matter if good or bad|i press the power button on my cd player|in my mind|i travel to brooklyn|enjoy a nuclear summer|feel like setting off an avalanche|ask|is that a riot|i love it even more to see you live|it amazes me how much passion you put into your music|i can feel how much you live for that|you just drag me along|with beats and rhymes|it makes addicting|gives me energy|

sax-ish

the same sax will sound very different, depending on who plays it|we exhale more than just breath|how can we expect our play to be harmonic if our life is in dissonance|as for me, i seem to be making the same mistakes over and over again|my timing is dreadful|often i cannot keep pace|if everything is going smoothly this fact distracts me so much i stumble|but whereas my voice is sometimes barely audible|i cannot hold back when i play|and every now and again|i even allow someone to listen|

notify-ish

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piano-ish

when i feel sad|i play the piano|when i feel good|i play the piano|whenever i have to think about something|i hit some notes on the piano|it makes me relax and opens my mind to all possibilities, solutions and ideas there are|it is my way of meditation|since i don’t read music and just play|i can even close my eyes and just focus on|nothing|perfect|my fingers do their thing on the keys|my mind gets soothed by the sounds that don’t mean much anymore since time is non existant when i play|

think-ish II

be patient|listen to your heart|trust your intuition|what does it say|don’t be too skeptical|do not underestimate the message|signs sometimes imply more than you would expect|if you know somebody well|you will know what he or she is thinking|combine gestures with what the person says|people are often too scared|do not express their feelings and wishes openly|they are afraid to get hurt|to hurt others|destroy things|help them overcome their inhibitions|be a role model for what you demand from others|stop using gestures and mimics|say what you think and want|express your feelings|other people will start to do the same|so, be patient|

shower-ish

no day without a wake-up shower|don’t|just don’t talk to me when i’m on my way to the shower in the morning|you would confuse me|put my life in danger because i might stumble|i might forget the well-trained path from my bed to the shower and end up clueless about where i am – what i was about to do – or – even worse who i am|i reincarnate in my shower|

think-ish

don’t even say what you are thinking|to what extent do we really know what the other person is thinking|how would we know|what makes us think we could know|how much do we give by our mimics, gestures|why are we constantly reading the gestures of the people we are trying to understand|what if|we would stop trying to know what the others are thinking and rather listen to what they are saying|that would mean|finally we all should say what we are thinking|no more will we rely on the skills of the others reading what one is not saying|

nostalg-ish

is it a phenomenon when one gets older|not that i would consider myself old yet|but still|i ask myself where the good old times have gone|times, when life was ingenuous|meaning, that one was living from one day to the other not having to think about tomorrow|life as an adult can be exhausting|there are so many things one has to think about|topics one had not have to deal with when still a child|it makes me pensive|but still|i do not want the old times back|the rite of passage can be challenging|and now i am satisfied, happy and proud of my grown-up life|i love to look back|back to good memories and experiences with family and friends|and from time to time i take the liberty to be silly and act like a child|at the same time, i am excited what life still has to offer|one should pause and re-orient for a moment|to consider for oneself who and what is important in life|tell people how much you love them and how proud you are of them|enjoy life to its fullest|because you never know what tomorrow might bring

agitat-ish

stomach–hurts|my mind–not functional|creativity–gone|i’m agitated|almost never|but it happens|longing to be held|longing to be as far away as possible from everybody|i hate myself when i’m like that|what is this place i’m in|a place of bitterness, pain and darkness|can i leave this place|no|not at my will|

hole-ish

what are we revealing|what do we try to show when wearing jeans with holes|skin|no|skin everywhere nowadays|it’s not about the skin|used might be the right word|we like to look used|not new|at least with some of our clothes|and yes we pay for used|why not|we also pay for tanning|although one could just let the sun do its job|but|it takes to long|it doesn’t look as good|we just don’t have the patience|we pay for our impatience|

bath-ish

it rejuvenates me when i am weary|it soothes me when i am restless|the hot water numbs my limbs and my brain|it blurs my senses and eases my pain| it is the best way to start|spend|end|a dreadful|ordinary|perfect|day|i would rather renounce my bed and sleep on the floor|than refrain from having a bath|

w-ish

what do we wish for|what can we ask for|are we always asking for more|is there more or are we just adding more onto what we already have|what do we really need|if there was no competition|if we wouldn’t know what more means|would we have nothing, and die|more seems to be a very natural thing to ask for|since we were babies we needed more to grow|so if there is no more|then what|

gay-ish

male| female| pansexuality| monosexuality| heterosexuality| autosexuality| homosexuality| asexuality| bisexuality|we luv em’ labels|it is yes and no|it is male and female|there is hetero and homo|there is black and white|and grey|while many women strive to become more masculine and love their men to be more understanding, less macho, more – feminine|doesn’t hetero become homo|is it the women who are becoming more masculine who show us the natural bisexuality|not the bisexuality meaning the ability of having sex with both male and female human|but rather the two sexes that we are both holding inside|if only 2,5% in men, and 5% in women of our total genome make the difference between male and female – how can one be 100% male or female|aren’t we all – gay|for me i might be gayer than most know – but i am certainly not as gay as some people wish|

procrastinat-ish

will i do it tomorrow|unlikely|although if asked, that would be my answer, yes tomorrow|am i lying|yes|so|bad is| i’m lying to myself|worse is|i’m lying to somebody else|eventually we have to do it – no matter what|but what makes me not realize that|life would be so much easier|probably|i’ll think about that|tomorrow|

urban-ish

what does a cow look like|do potatoes grow on trees|did we substitute essential knowledge with knowledge about how to go about when faced with a urban-fully-automatic-water-closet where if you don’t have the necessary change you might just not have human needs|

tea-ish

the first infusion has caffeine|the second lots of tannins|nobody talks about the third|what is it about firsts|does a first always ask for a second|nobody asks about the third – odd – you ever had a good third|if there is a third|do we stop counting|does it matter no more|things that are countable seem to please us more|there is something secure about countable things|

truth-ish

we all know very simple rules and truths about life|to be healthy we need a balanced diet and regular exercise|to keep track of our finances we should start by writing down our expenses and earnings daily|it might take more time to keep putting something on our to do list than actually doing it|more often than not it is advisable to think before we speak|and simple rules are the hardest to follow|

long-ish

it has been quite long, almost a month since the last blog came out|but due to the very prominent and much attention seeking christmas time – time was the most wanted good – the rare good|new year, new blog, new topics|new year, new blog|welcome 2008|

season-ish

winter is the perfect season for many people’s favourite passtime|self-pity|everything is so dark and grey|rainy and cold|why do i have to get up so early|nothing is going right|nobody else has to put up with all this stuff|and they are not even showing sympathy|it’s so unfair|it just sucks to be me|be careful not to enjoy the suffering too much though|you might accidently lighten your mood|

social-ish

striving for individuality|aren’t we all, somehow|we are individuals by nature, so it just makes sense to stay the way we were made|but then, why do all of us, at least sometimes, look for conformity|for the strenght that lies in a group of people who think alike, dress alike, act alike|do we fool ourselves by choosing products that seem to be very indiviualistic, or let’s say not that common|take a apple computer as an example|after having bought this piece of individuality we, suddenly, enjoy having joined a group of people that are like us, linked by liking the same things|individuality is fake|

sick-ish

weakness|being sick seems to go hand in hand with being weak|do we get the flu because we were weak|because we couldn’t face the harsh world|did we show weakness when we chose the wrong clothes|two layers of socks, thick sweaters that makes others think you are expectant and pants that touch no skin anymore because of what you wear beneath them|you chickened out|you were too weak to resist the fashion|you got sick|

pic-ish

nowadays face-to-face communication loses importance|the first step to learn more about someone today is googling|the web presence of a person can tell us a lot about them|not so much about the way they are|but about the way they would like to be|and this starts with the profile picture|there is the ‘social’ type that does not seem to be able to part with their friends even for a picture|the ‘serious’ type that uses their passport photo to display themselves|the ‘vain’ type that obviously chose the most flattering picture they own|the ‘creative’ type that photoshops their pictures before they put them online|the ‘nonconformist’ type that chose a cartoon character instead|the ‘humorous’ type that is pulling a face|and so on and so forth|we may disagree on the way someone describes their own character|but we will have to accept the fact that this is how they would like to be seen|

cloth-ish

ever found yourself just watching people passing by|not everybody does it|i do it for the reason to see what they are wearing|how they cover theirselves|of course always in comparison to how i like to either cover my inside or show my inside by choosing the rights clothes for the moment|does the fashion show who we are or do we become what the fashion wants us to be|if i would ever go steal something in a store, what would i be wearing|what is more likely|would i be more tempted to steal if i wore a hooded sweater or a suit|am i able to psychologically switch between hoodie and tux that easily|or do i have a hoodie|and a tux|on demand

ident-ish

sometimes we seem to get trapped in the identity we invented for ourselves|we feel like there is something we cannot do or say because it would be so unlike us|funny thinking|just how stable is our identity|if i would lose my memory and had to start all over again|what kind of person would i become|would i recognize or even like myself|would i be better off without my experiences and memories|would oblivion mean bliss or torture|when i realise that despite its constraints i like my present self too much to find out|is that an epiphany or is it just me affirming my imprisonment yet again|after all it would be so unlike me to even consider doing anything reckless|sometimes i wish i could believe in some kind of god|because then i could entrust someone else with brooding about my identity|and happily accept the constraints of my life as part of some master plan|

engl-ish

is it unfair when a non-native-english-speaker hates listening to other non-native-english-speakers with awful accents|who can say what proper english is|there is no english anymore|too many influences over the last years|too many people mixing it with their own mother-languages|and what is english|the great english language is nothing else but a blend of french, scandinavian and german influences|so let’s keep influencing|but at least get the pronunciation straight|

study-ish

lately i have been wondering, if choosing an interesting topic for your thesis isn’t in fact a very unwise idea|sure, it’s nice to engage in something you’re genuinely interested in, but then again the risk of getting distracted by fascinating sub-topics is high|and if people around you get too interested in your topic, you will inevitably end up disappointing everyone|you might just be better of with the boring topic|

name-ish

mothers love their children|fathers love their children|hence their children get the most beautiful name there is|but what about parents that seem not to love their children|parents of the little girl porsche, or two year old alabama|so we really have mercy for parents who call their children cash, or dusti|although one doesn’t want to push it|but for god’s sake|stick to the bible|at least namewise|

friends-ish

in a time where friends don’t live just next door but across countries, continents, oceans – the mean of communication become unbelievably important to us|having no internet connection is bearable for a couple days, having the words ‘no service’ show on your cellphone display almost physically hurts|we are so used to be ‘connected’ all the time that is feels surreal when one comes to a spot where you can only connect to what your eyes can see, your ears can hear and your hands can touch|the real thing|to surrounding that became less important|we finally see a horizon again|

christmas-ish

so here’s the problem|you don’t like christmas|sentimental carols, cramped department stores, being trapped with your relatives for several days in a row|still you’ve got this advent calendar and think it would be a shame to waste it|i know just the thing|open the first window on the 15th of december|the last window then opens on the 7th of january, the end of all holidays, the day everything is back to normal|now THAT is something to look forward to|  

bulgur-ish

one reason why to visit slovenia|bulgur|there is a thought for the ones not familiar with their cereals|if you don’t know the taste than just think you are eating something with a very medicament aftertaste|it is one of slovenian most famous dishes and besides the immense quiet|can you say immense quiet|and the extreme amount of fresh air you can inhale that is the one reason why not to visit this small country|remember the name and avoid it|bulgur or ajdova kasa in the fabulous slovenian language

sloven-ish

did you know|slovenia is in the european union|slovenia has the euro|slovenia, like switzerland has besides the official slovenian also parts where italian and german is still spoken|oh and for the convenience of all travelers english and/or german is well known throughout the country|but why would one be interested in visiting slovenia -that is yet to be discovered|

art-ish

Antony Gormleyantony gormley|he seems to be quite picky about where he shows his awesome art|at the moment he is exibiting ‘feeling material’ in the deutsche bundestag|the word goes around that even the deutsche bundestag had lots of problems convincing him to exibit in the most important building in germany|go look at it and envy berlin|oh white cube gallery has him too|  

first-ish

this is a first entry on x-ish|x-ish is a blog for the little things in life that flow besides the life we are so wrapped up in|as an example we all know art (at least we think we do) but art-ish is is about the art-world of the not so obvious|